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promo. [21 Aug 2005|03:53am]

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Crazy Story. [21 Aug 2005|01:45am]

Ok i have been dealing with this for a really long time and I figured that since none of my friends have gone thru this and they havent helped me i need to go to another sorce.

So...I was dating this kid brandon in the 8th grade. We dated on and off up to a year ago so we were like that for basically about 3 years. He cheated on me a couple times and everything But for some reason i still love him to death. So now he has a girlfriend, he chats on her all the time with me ever since they have started goin out and they will be goin out for a year on the 7th. In the beginning he would just call me over to have sex with me and then i would leave. I dont know what it was but as hard as i tried i couldnt say no to him. Then i started dating other people. Now brandons the type of person who freaks out very easily. And hes VERY protective. So when i started seeing other people he didnt like that. So we stoped talking for a while till about a month or so ago. Im really close to his mom and vise versa he is to mine so he would call my mom and i over everynight. We would just sit outside and my mom his mom Brandon and i would just sit and talk till 3-4 in the morning. at that time my boyfriend and i had just broken up, Brandon really didnt like that i had another boyfriend and The guy i was goin out with before knew about brandon and how long we were together and didnt like the fact of him and i talking. Well Brandon called Him one night and was telling him not to talk to me again. He would tell my mom that he enjoys being with us cause his true self comes out and he just has fun with me. He also says hes 17 and confused.

One night when we were over there him and i kinda got into it and i didnt want it to get farther so i just told my mom i wanted to leave and he threw a fit. He had called me later that night apolgizing and we talked about alot. he told me straight up that he didnt want me with anyone else and he would rather me go to school work and stay home. Mind you he still has a girlfriend. He dosent like me to go out at all and every night he calls me and im out and hell beg me to go to his house and such.

Now the fun part comes in. About two days ago He had called me. Begging me to come over, called my mom begging her to tell me to come over. So i did. i know exactly what he wanted. but this time it was weird. when he first started goin out with his girlfriend and would still have sex with me he would never kiss me cause he said that , it has more meainig to it. well when i was over there he kissed me. While we had sex he was saying how he really does love me and i should know that, It was so weird. he even had me call him to make sure i made it home alright. so this is where it gets good. the next day i was at the party store on the corner of his street getting my check cashed. AAnd guess who pulls up Yes brandon and his girlfriend. Now brandnon wouldnt get out of the car so she went in the store. I walked in there and she just started at me. She knows that he cheated on her with me before and she knows all about me cause his mom and i are very close and she dont like that. So i mean im not goin to be rude and if somone stares you should say hi so i did. I got my money and walked out and Brandon wouldnt even look at me. He usally calls me everynight and didnt. Usally comes over on saturday morning and didnt and didnt call tonight either. Now. Ive been goin thru all this for 2 years. I compare every guy that i see to him and i dont want to anymore. I want to know what to do. I hear so many diffrent things and i just want some help so please please give me advise.......

PROMO. [27 Jul 2005|07:00pm]

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you might just be interested.♥

[06 Jul 2005|12:00am]

[ mood | confused ]

I just recently found out that the guy I was dating for the past month is engaged to be married. =/

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[14 Feb 2005|02:48pm]


[16 Jan 2005|08:18pm]

[ mood | ?? ]

Hi everyone.
okay. i liked my best friend. i told him that i liked him when i still did and he told me that we are just friends... and we cant be anything else...blah blah blah. This was about 3 weeks ago. ive tried to get over him. Today i was talking to him online and he tells me that we are just friends out of no where and that we cant be anything more than friends for now. later on, he admits that he used to like me. i got kind of upset because he didnt even tell me, he's the kind of "honestly is very important" guy, so i found that a bit odd. Also, i lost my chance without even knowing it. im really confused right now.

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[16 Jan 2005|10:31pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

Hey, I'm new. My name is Morgan and i live in Ny. Heres my story i guess....

I dated this guy Dave for a year. During our relationship he left for college about 2 and 1/2 hours away from my house. We had our ups and downs and eventually we broke up. I was just about over him and moved on when he calls during christmas vaca. Of course the stupid person I am, I accepted the call and decide to go to Denny's with him at 2 in the morning. We agreed to see eachother but not tell anyone about it. Things were going okay for awhile. Then I found out the other day that he was at this girl hailey's house. Hailey is dave's bestfriend julien's girlfriend and dave was there by himself. No one knew he was there, dave lied to both me and ju. I forgave him after many days of fighting. And then today we got into a fight and he finally admitted to doing things with hailey and having a girlfriend back at college. This was the worst feeling i have ever felt. So i figured i would find someone in here that could relate to me and my situation and could maybe give me some advice....

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[24 Dec 2004|07:45pm]


[30 Oct 2004|12:50pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

sometimes love just bites.. and the worst part about it is knowing that you still love the person that has hurt you the most and its like unbareable to let them go.. It just plan out hurts.. its been three weeks since we broke up and i am still hurting just as much as i was hurting from day one.. its like i let go of the man that i love the most and its just ripping me apart well i thought i would just write in here and say alittle something something.. thanks

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post [22 Oct 2004|05:50am]

[ mood | crushed ]

i wrote about a week or two ago about me breaking up with my boyfriend and how it hurts and everything looking for support and so far i have gotten great support but i thought i would post... you know it hurts so bad when you loose the person you love.. its like you love them but then you hate them for doing the things that they do to you and you don't really know what to do... :( i just thought i would post alittle something..


hey [14 Oct 2004|02:16pm]

I just joined and i thought i would tell alittle about me.. i am a 22 year old female from south carolina.. i joined this community because i am going threw heartache. I broke up with my ex because he cheated on me and everything and it was so hard to go back to what we had... i wanted to trust him so much but i couldn't and its hard.. so i need some support to make me strong again. :( but its so hard... so i thought i would join this community

[30 Sep 2004|09:41pm]

it wouldn't have been as bad if he didn't leave the message that he wanted to break up on my cell phone's voicemail...
this sucks
leaving your breakup message on a voicemail....shouldn't hurt worse, how gay
i don't want to go around looking for pity, but, *sigh*

arrrrrrgggg the first, and not the last time i'm sure i'll say this, i hate boys, why deal? but then we all just get caught up in the web again
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[30 Sep 2004|11:20pm]

[ mood | scared ]

I need help.

To make a long story short... I just got out of a 3 year abusive relationship, which left me the single mother of one wonderful little boy, Aidan (he'll be 2 in November). Paying for diapers, groceries, etc. wasn't a problem while I was in the relationship, but for my own health I had to get out of that.

Now, my problem is, I'm working, but I can't afford diapers, food, warm clothes, or anything I need for my son. I can barely afford the gas money to get to work, on top of babysitting $ and food.

I guess what I'm asking, and I'm sorry if I'm coming off sounding like a beggar... but if there is anyone out there who is better off than I am, if you could help me out in any way, I'd be VERY thankful. I don't have much support from my family and I really don't have any friends who could help me out, most of them are younger than I am anyways.

This is my last resort. If you could please help me, my email is plsmachic@excite.com, or I could email you if you comment with your email address.

Again, I'm sorry for asking, I just don't know where else to turn.

~* Laura *~

___1 she's unbalanced

[29 Sep 2004|06:33pm]

[ mood | sad ]

i hate you for lying to me
i hate you for using me
i hate you for fucking up my life

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im new. [11 Aug 2004|11:48pm]

[ mood | cheerful ]

okay. well i am new. and heres the problem or something:

i met this guy(ray) from one of the girls i work with. its her brother. and when hes around me he wont talk to me or anything. he just looks at me and smiles. well then i found out that he wants to take me out on a date. well i dont get how he is supposed to take me out on a date if he doesnt talk to me he just stares at me and smiles.

kinda weird. let me know what you think.

any questions just comment.


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new here [04 Aug 2004|08:11pm]

Hey, I'm Meredith and I'm new. I'm gonna tell you a little story. Okay, I know this kid..Tom, and I adore him soo much. I would die for him pretty much. We were together for awhile but then this rumor came around that I "cheated" on him, which definatly isn't true..then he broke it off. So now, I'm still in love with the kid and he thinks that I'm a faggot. He likes me, he told me so..but he's scared. I've tried telling him time after time, that I never cheated on him, but he doesn't believe me and it's pissing me off. He might move, but he asked his parents that if he could find 10 reasons to stay here, then he would be able to stay. I want to be one of those reasons. But he wants to move more because of me. I don't know what to do. How do I convince him that I never cheated on him?
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